The Subculture of the Wrongfully Accused
By Thylias Moss
Ultimately improved by it: | slant light
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hitting his prison obliquely
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near the state bird’s pointed head | accentuated
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crest, the black-ringed bill
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from which wheat-wheat-wheat-wheat
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from which whoit cheer, whoit cheer; | cheer- cheer-cheer
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inspired Ronald Cotton to listen
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as in his head, the solitary cardinal | indulged in snails
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which seemed like polished fossils
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of trophy hog tails | (after prize butchery)
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that Ronald was able to recall,
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his hair a mess of replicas of them
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as industrious as the state
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whose success was poultry & eggs | tobacco & soybeans
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as well as convictions:
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None as tightly knit as Jennifer’s | (not even the state flag)
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that she could identify Cotton
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that cotton’s taking on appearances | other than burst white
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of a dense localized haze from which | to weave memory, following
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pink-petaled start, rather a satellite | dish of a flower, pollen/sensor-
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studded antenna protruding from | the center
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undeniably; the jury couldn’t acquit | Cotton
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of its role in documenting and altering | Jennifer’s history,
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many lives changed
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as result of consequences, sensors | that boast duality
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of receptor and transmitter: witness: | insects give and take, taint
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what is put out, taken in; mix
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it up so that interrelatedness | spreads
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and the understandable error of | metaphor
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becomes less erroneous over time:
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eleven years in prison, innocence | locked up, protected
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although in prison, it resembled | something else.
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If Cotton strained, he could see | the top
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of a Ferris wheel on the horizon | just a possible
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segment of a rainbow the length | of a chain
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of cardinal feathers
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even though it wasn’t that at all. | The eye witnesses all the time,
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even the unseeing eye is turned | toward a focus
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on black, saturation dense as | conviction; the eye
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processes, pulls in whole vista to a | retinal speck
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of convergence
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which is to say there is some Cotton | in Poole,
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some connection, independent | shared participation in cold
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beer, occasional cards turkey-spread
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in the right hand without knowing | the other
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sank into the seat at the cinema | the same way
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and sampled Funnel cake at the | state fair
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within a week of each other
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and more than that in common: | both being men
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and convicted for what men really can and really do, do.
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Including sometimes confessions | and apologies; cash reparations
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after the innocence is free to extend its parameters
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to unlocked doors, be an oversized | over-zealous white bird
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floating down the aisle, its cottony | haze lifted
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in order to kiss and marry Ronald’s | calm delight in being able
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to take his time
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leave his longshoreman’s mark on | ships
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that take some of him to any port in the world: durable goods
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such as the DNA whose precision | detects human exactitude,
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and could build as many Ronalds as time would permit
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something Jennifer now desperately wants to do, restoring
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what was lost because it was like | something else,
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because the fact of similarity | is compelling, convincing;
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if connections could not be made, | there’d be no havens, no fugitive
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status lost to fusion, no links | to God, no human
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murmurings whose | constant echoes
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are also the gentle silvery hum | of fans praying
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over computer motors to cool them | and also mimic
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motion of small wings amplified | to make sound
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in the distance much like | the electric razor
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preparing a head on death row | clean as a light bulb.
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Ronald was prepared to be believed;
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he saw the quiet manner of his long days in court
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as evidence of his rationality and | contemplativeness
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such as befits clergy; a potential | propensity for order,
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mercy, the steadiness required to | dispense blessings
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mostly on the undeserving without | emotion or judgment
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selfishness or preference
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while he was being judged guilty for | lack of emotion,
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for Jennifer’s incontrovertible emotional insistence
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on Cotton’s being the one—she had | to finger him
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to be comfortable within her survival. | No way to mistake
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to ever forget details documented in | memory,
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the event relived to the point that it | resculpted her brain
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into a Cottony bust (he was there | to be the perfect model)
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whose reality floated away | in a Poole,
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as only the reflection of Cotton
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identified as source. A situation | also called (must-have) moonlight.
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Here’s the new & improved Cotton:
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eleven years in the making; | enough
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time served to anger to ruin it; at that | same room’s temperature
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it became doubt of clemency, pardon: | peculiar butter that erupted
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as gratefulness for the miracle of absolute exoneration
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when his impossibility as rapist | was proven.
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Even Cotton conceded that | the composite sketch
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bore a just resemblance to Cotton, | displayed a metaphor for men
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like Cotton, the seeds of capability | in the structure of the face,
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the human repertoire that includes | Cotton
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who softly consents to meet Jennifer when she asks him to
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funnel her regret and apologies deep into himself, accepting that
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she meant no malice toward him | but toward
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the perpetrator whom many men | resemble, all
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brothers, family
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of man resemblance; Cotton’s | own daughter, Cotton’s own wife
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could be in a similar position; no | offense
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taken, captivated by the beauty of | Jennifer; her superior logic
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refusing to let the crime against her
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silence her; as sure, as certain, as | dazzling
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about speaking up about mistaking | Cotton for Poole
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as she was in identifying | in the lineup
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the closest thing there to Poole | the best
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available, the incredible | likeness
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that memory seized, filling gaps in | the recollected Poole
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with Cotton’s particulars. | She felt better in her cotton- touched skin.
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Metaphor is a form of forgiveness; a short rope of it knots-up
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those that can’t come together any other way into being defined
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by the other. Strange
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and estranged pairings give rise to mutable truth
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that can yield to both dawn and twilight
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demands that things be seen differently.
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Jennifer in moonlight instead of being illuminated moon whose face
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was also in Emmett Till’s way, but this generation of Jennifer has another side
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home late after a day of good faith | in which she and Cotton team up
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at a church to speak up about doubt | as less a shadow than certainty.
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Memory is as accurate as metaphor, an overlay
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that always fits something, that like the purest
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most sparkling water is too naïve | not to submit
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to any vessel into which it’s poured. | Just to be guzzled.
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Perhaps the vessel in which cotton | becomes a pool
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in which North Carolina is shaped | like an embryo:
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Humanity still on the brink | of infancy. |
Source: Poetry (January 2006)