A Conversation with My Mother About the Bloodstains on My Shirt
do you remember in fifth grade
when i was all of eighty pounds
soaking wet and fully clothed
i told you there was a boy on the bus
twice my size and three grades ahead
he liked to throw his weight every which way
and i had little to no weight to throw back
with all the reasons to get out of his path
you sent me back to that narrow aisle
with slim chances of victory you told me
you gotta stand up to people like that
so they know they don’t own the world
there’s a Palestinian student
who waited all night for me when pigs snatched me
from an action and she taught me about genocide
about the PLO and Black Panther Party
said our struggles share goals and enemies
i met a Congolese dancer who said slavery didn’t separate us completely
he told me of Nkrumah and Lumumba and Garvey and Cabral
and how brutal belgium and all of europe is to Africans
did you know we been fighting back
since before the slave ships docked
did you know the shore tried to wash our footprints
away but some of us walked here on air
did you know there are traces of us
in every speck of dust in this dirty world
Ma we are thousands of miles apart but there are Black women
who look just like Granny braving floods in makeshift tents up the street
there’s an east side where the sun shines all night
and there’s no shade in the daytime and no grocery stores year round
if a bully must be stopped then what are we to do about biden or obama
or congress or Chevron or Firestone or Apple or Nike
these cowards push buttons and traffic in drone strikes and slave labor
and pandemics and extinctions and mass slaughter and apartheid
ain’t they just some wooden giants
don’t they got toothpick ankles
won’t they fall like all weak effigies
must eventually with enough gasoline
believe me your baby is still your baby but (un)fortunately
now he sees himself in handcuff scars and collapsed mines
i stay up late all week studying
every other night a new corpse who looks
like me falls off the pages and onto my floor
a whole human gone before i knew them
who loved me enough to offer their life
what am i to do with all this sand in my chest
i read about another political prisoner last night
and nearly drowned in salt water
i can’t keep crying for dead and dying people
without doing something about the death
i’m trying to say it’s fifth grade again
and the aisle is getting more narrow
the bus is headed off a cliff
if we don’t knock
this stubborn giant off its course
i hope you can understand
why i haven’t called
why i still think of you daily
Source: Poetry (October 2025)