Poem for My Father [“The sprayed cockroach doesn’t know”]
By Kevin Prufer
The sprayed cockroach doesn’t know
it’s already dead.
It’ll scratch around
behind the refrigerator
while I read my book
about Augustus, emperor of Rome.
The past,
I was late to learn,
doesn’t exist
outside the imagination.
Your final night,
I held the water glass just so,
put the straw to your lips.
We both knew it was the end.
For some reason,
the moment I sprayed that cockroach,
I remembered your hospital bed
exactly as it had been.
A stinging mist fell over it.
You drank and drank
as if there would be another day for you.
That I loved you was, I hope,
implicit
even as you were slipping
into history.
In the white alcove,
the night nurse laughed
into her black cell phone.
Someone pushed a tray of pills
down the hallway,
around the corner,
and into the past.
Source: Poetry (October 2025)