Look to the Crocus

Eyelids are the final petals closing on this life.

When I die, place crocuses on my eyes—they will guide me.

I kneel down next to the crocuses, touch them gingerly as if they were puppies

with pin teeth jumping excitedly in the firth breeze.

At last the snow has left us, cleaned the earth for crocuses

luxurious as silky hair or oiled skin.

Don’t be fooled—crocuses are as wild as a fairground wheel

spinning out of control. The crocuses were coughed up out of the ground;

they are scattered around tree trunks like residue from a terrible accident.

They are purple tears hand-sewn to the earth.

We are all survivors in this life, but none more so than the crocus

embedded in the grass like a microchip gathering the history of the world.

Crocuses are submarines moving silently though green waves.

The crocuses seem to be melting among snowdrops like ice cream

with the wet look of a frog; their orange tongue-pistils barely visible.

Crocuses are satellites in the grass watching us, they know us

better than we know ourselves. Look to the crocus.

Do not stand on the purple crocus, it will remember your footprint;

like elephants—they never forget. The crocus beckons like homemade liqueur—

each one a glassful of sunlight. The crocus is a soft word in my ear;

the crocus is my best self. I carry them around in my head like a song.

I want to crawl inside of their purple armor—dwell in the honeyed saffron

filaments at their center. Thank God when the final curtain falls

it is made of crocuses.