Some Things I Said

writings on the wall
 

I was the one who said
the ditch in the backyard was maybe a river
that had flowed from somewhere else and was flowing to
somewhere else
 
I was the one who said where are you now?
 
I was the one who told about the one whose photograph in
the book of Eakins’s photographs was of
a guy the perfection of his body was his doom, and
Shakespeare said so too
 
Right there before my eyes was the one who said
where are you now? Where
are you Anne? I was the one
 
Who saw how Aeneas lay there in the darkness watching the
light, the little motions of light moving around the ceiling
and telling him something
 
I was the one whose mother’s voice called out of the urn
beseeching
 
I was the one who said how the day light knocks at the lid in
vain
 
I said be keep to your self be close be wall all dark
 
I said good people are punished, like all the rest
 
I said the boats on the river are taking it easy
 
I said the brain in your head whispers
 
I said death lives in our words
 
I said how beautiful is the past, how few the implements,
and how carefully made
 
I was the one who said
her body witness is, so also is her voice
 
I said better not know too much too soon all about it
 
where rhymes with beware, I said
 
I said it is the body breathing,
the crib of knowing
 
I wish I could recall now the lines written across my dream is what
I said
 
I said the horse’s hooves know all about it, the sky’s statement of
oncoming darkness
 
The fumes on the roof are visible and drifting away like
martyred souls, I said
 
I said the knees of the committee touch each other under the
table, furtive in pleasure
 
I said
Eurydice, My Father
 
I said we huddle over the ice,
the two of us
 
To squeeze from a stone its juice is her art’s happiness is
what I said
 
I am the one who said,
I hum to myself myself in a humming dream
 
And how we’re caught, I said,
In language: in being, in feeling, in acting. I said, it’s
exacting
 
I said the sea upheld us, would not let us go nor drown us,
and we looked down say a million years, and there were the
fish
 
See, the dead bloom in the dark, I said
 
The nightjar feeds while flying softly, smiling, smiling, I said
 
I said revenant whitefaced Death is walking not knowing
whether
 
I said the formula on the blackboard said who are you
 
I said Utnapishtim said to Gilgamesh blink of an eye
 
I said where are you now    Where are you Anne
 
Stanza my stone my father poet said
 
vwx    stones and sticks
 
The day doesn’t know what day it is, I said
 
What’s in the way the sun shines down, I said
 
I cried in my mute heart,
What is my name and nature