["I wake and feel the fell of dark, not day"]

I wake and feel the fell of dark, not day.
What hours, O what black hours we have spent 
This night! what sights you, heart, saw; ways you went! 
And more must, in yet longer light's delay. 
 
With witness I speak this. But where I say 
Hours I mean years, mean life. And my lament 
Is cries countless, cries like dead letters sent 
To dearest him that lives alas! away. 
 
I am gall, I am heartburn. God's most deep decree 
Bitter would have me taste: my taste was me; 
Bones built in me, flesh filled, blood brimmed the curse. 
 
Selfyeast of spirit a dull dough sours. I see 
The lost are like this, and their scourge to be 
As I am mine, their sweating selves; but worse. 

Copyright Credit: Gerard Manley Hopkins, ["I wake and feel the fell of dark, not day"] from Gerard Manley Hopkins: Selected Poetry, ed. by Catherine Phillips (Oxford and New York: Oxford University Press, 1996).
Source: Gerard Manley Hopkins: Selected Poetry (Oxford University Press, 1996)